MY PILLAR OF STRENGTH AND REFUGEi was going to rant on about how worried i am, how stressful it is that o's are in FOUR days.
like you wait for this day to come for ages and study for what, three and a quarter years for it and bang it comes and you're still unprepared!!
BUT! after reading abby's post, i am ever so inspired, motivated and less stressed!!
it's amazing isnt it? and so have decided to save my poor readers (if any) from torture.
hahaha
she's such a great woman of God!
and i'm very proud and amazed by how she handled the situation instead of droning on, she faced such a sad situation with such positivity that could only come from our God.
the most admirable thing is with her ah ma's passing, she still had nothing but praise for our Lord!
that really refuelled my already burnt out passion and rekindled it as i was feeling weary, dry and doubtful about my faith. but it was in God's plan!!
how exciting.God please help their family cope and still praise you (: (:
i'm sure you're very proud of them and that their beloved ah ma is enjoying herself in paradise! please continue to keep watch over them and remind them that their grandma is with you and that could only be joyous (: let their wonderful memories with her stay with them forever. that's so beautiful. and God, thank you so much for blessing me at such a time by passing by her blog. you're awesome!
amen (: oh and thank you abby, you've been a blessing :D
oh gosh. God please also help my friends and i hold till monday, please GOD.
i pray that we will not get overly anxious or nervous but rather keep our trust and hope in you (:
if it is not too much to ask, please help us reach our peak then and show others that even amist all our busy extended lessons, tutions, ever-increasing workload and tiring + numerous training sessions and show everyone that it is truely you our lord who gives us strength and we in turn will honour and glorify you in our results!!!! PLEASE GOD. but your will not mine be done. Dear God please please please stop me from sulking and being all gloomy or maybe even overly-cheerful or insensitive when i attempt to mask my stress or disappointment. may the joy of the lord rub of me into the lives of others (: and i ask you use me to bring joy into my classmates and reach one more for you. help me to stop myself from going into the last years binging disorder phrase again!! i can't afford it with the upcoming competitions nor for my health and your holy temple. and the thing is i think it'd be more serious if it comes back in full force cos it is already coming back, i'm eating like crazy that wei is worried. God please grant me the gift of self control that i will be able to stop myself from reaching for another helping of that ''guotiao gan, duo duo la jiao, jia rou he tao gei'' noodles from the famous orange bowl stall in the canteen or the delicious gravy-laden chicken rice from the chicken rice stall, or eating packets after packets of fries and fried snacks or even drinking numerous cups or coffee and eating cookies, pints of ice cream, packets of chocolates or the kaya bread!!!! please God. if that binge eating thing comes back in full force, i'm afraid i wont be able to handle it and ''cure'' it like the other time? gosh, God. i am scared luh. how if it comes back? how if i cant control? how if i harm this holy temple of yours by continuing to eat pizza after pizza, noodles and rice even after i know i'm dead full?
I NEED YOU. more than ever, with studies, with friends, with decisions, with relationships, with the things on my mind..
i choose you.
i choose you over adversity, i choose you over anger.i choose you over pessimism, i choose you over sorrow.i choose you over stress, i choose you over frustration.I CHOOSE YOU OVER BINGE EATING, i choose you over the gossips.i love you, my God.HE IS GREATHE IS GOD
